Gosh, I get sick of myself sometimes. That sounds bad….but I think it might be kind of healthy to be sick of the parts of yourself that are hurtful to you and those you love. Mostly, I’m sick of driving myself to try and measure up. I try to measure up to what people expect and what I believe God expects of me. I try to measure up so that I’ll be “OK”….. God won’t have to chasten me, people will be impressed with me and love me….I’ll be “OK” . It gets really exhausting. Oh, and I also have the tendency to make sure my family is exhausted trying to measure up as well, you know, lest they think that they are already “OK” hahaaa. When I get to the exhausted-trying -to-measure up place, the Lord usually brings me back to Psalm 91: 14-16.
“Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”
Why will God protect me, answer me, be with me in trouble, deliver me, honor me, satisfy me with long life and show my His salvation? …..because I love him.
Not because I measure up, but because I love him. Aaaaaahhhh that’s sooo good. I’m gonna take a rest in that today…..”because he loves me says the Lord”