I am a “do” er. A “mover and shaker”, I get things done. I’m always really busy doing life, and I like it that way……most of the time. I have been called the “energizer bunny”, but sometimes even I get in over my head…the constant flow of adrenaline drains me and I find myself becoming weary. The weariness shows up as a short fuse…don’t cut in front of me at Walmart,…mild paranoia…”what did you mean by that?”…..or what I call “thinking from the dark side”….”hey,I’m turning my lemonade into lemons do you mind?”.
When I start feeling the weariness set in, or more often my family points it out to me, I know that I have to rest. I need physical rest but it’s more than that, I need spiritual rest. I need to sit a while in the quiet with my bible and my Lord. I need to flood the pages of my prayer journal with all my “thoughts from the dark side”, the anxieties and frustrations and rest. I will relax into the rest provided by the one who is sabbath rest. There’s nothing wrong with accomplishing, with having goals…it’s being goal-driven that becomes the problem. It’s my motivation that matters. If I’m driven to perform by a need to be accepted, or a need to feel loved, then I am relying on my activity to fulfill me.
In “The Message” Eugene Peterson paraphrases Matt. 11:28-30 when he says;
“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me — watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”